breathing a sigh of relief

   So here's the thing. I really enjoy intense video game experiences. The thrill, the challenge, the fear and intensity of action/horror video games are amazing. I find myself sweating while the controller trembles in my hands. It sounds lame and dumb, I know, but I enjoy it. Sometimes, the games can be extremely frustrating. The challenges can give way to great aggravation. However, recently I have begun playing Toy Story 3 and I must say it is a relief to play a game that is so whimsical and care free. The fun and relaxation of its innocent game play was fantastic. It was a nice break.

   I guess you could say that many things in life are like this too. Things can get so frustrating; so dark and sad that all we really need is just a light, care-free experience to relax in. Lately, things in my life have been quite frustrating for me and as I began Toy Story 3 I started to just giggle at everything it was. This is not an advocacy for video games in any way; it was simply the means in which I escaped from that which has vexed me for the past few weeks. I think I'll go play some more. See ya.

So it finally dawns on me...

Driving home last night from a concert at Six Flags; I'm alone and in deep thought. I begin to think about who I am or rather what defines me. Then my thoughts turn towards what my image might be to many other people I know. BAM!!! It hits me. What I know about myself; my deeds, core personality, attitude, everything that sums me up is so far from the person most people know me as. This leads me to conclude how often I use teasing, laughing, jokes, insults, sarcasm and nonsense to keep myself distant from...well, everyone. Why? Why would I do this? Is this my way of hiding the disgusting, sinful creature that only God and I know that I am? The saddest part of all this is that I am more worried of being exposed to my peers than the ever-present fact that God sees my deepest secrets better than I do and that I daily ignore this fact. Moreover, in doing this do I somewhat deny the presence of God in my life? Because I act as though Him knowing what I do doesn't matter as much as other people knowing should send up a red flag about my priorities. Its sickening.

   So, how's it going? Its been a while. I'm sure that there have been so many things that I could have posted; so many emotions that could have been expressed through this blog. Alas, I am forgetful and possibly lazy; I don't really feel like finding that out for sure. I suppose I will just fill you in with something that I have been thinking about for literally the past few minutes. 

 Before I begin I should state now that I adore Jim Henson. There is something that has been bothering me though. Why is Kermet the Frog the leader of like the entire gang? How did he earn this position of leader? Think about it, he's just a flimsy little frog. Has none of the other characters bothered to vie for that position? I bet Fozzy could take him. So could Animal. What about that huge muppet, what's his name.... SWEETUMS! Not to mention that Kermet is practically a slave to a narcissistic pig. That can't be a good political move on his part. Look, it seems that he's nothing more than a push over. At least Sesame Street has "BIG" Bird and Mario is Nintendo's plumber even when he's "shrooming". Those chracters posses qualities that promote leadership. Kermet does no such thing and he is the only iconic leader who questionably sits at the head of his own world's table.

"Well, what about Mickey Mouse? He hasn't done anything really special as head of the Disney body..."

"Oh thanks, Nathan. Look what you made me type."

I suppose I could delete that last part but I guess I am kinda lazy...

So pissed, need to vent

Right now, I am just so friggin pissed off. I hate, I hate, I hate trying to do something very simple and having it all become the most complicated thing on the planet. Today, all I wanted to do is a simple data transfer but nothing will let me do it and now my hard drive won't work and I need to the data. I am just so made right now. The only way to vent my frustration right now is to pound on the keys I'm using to type this harder than usual. So yeah, I am rambling on here, just trying to cool myself down. This would be the time that I wish I had someone try to fight me because I would unleash a wrath that has never been seen from me. The rest of the day will be plagued by my distaste and anger; all of which will in the form of silence and a scowl.

A new addition to my blog

I just wanted to let you, my beloved readers, know that I will be adding a new snippet to my posts. Each week I will be posting a list of the lesser known holidays that will be recognized (I use that term loosely) that week. 

Here is a list of them for the week of 3/13/11- 3/20/11

(3-14) Pi Day

(3-16) Lips Appreciation Day

(3-17) Evacuation Day, Absolutely Incredible Kid Day

(3-18) Awkward Moments Day, Forgive Mom and Dad Day

(3-19) National Quilting Day, Worm Moon

(3-20) Kiss Your Fiance Day, Won't You Be My Neighbor Day

Think about it people!

   My car had recently broken down and my laptop had come down with a virus and I had to get them both fixed. On my way home, something dawned on me. We have no idea how complicated the things we take for granted are. Think about it people! We have cell phones that are smaller than our hands and they can carry hours of music, videos, take pictures and call people anywhere on the planet...yet we're picky about whether it folds or not. Coffee comes in more flavors than I can count, with a smorgasbord of additives, and it comes from another country with people making careers out of picking and growing these beans correctly so they can be roasted properly yet we can't drink any other brand than the one kind we like. (How many different coffee bean fields are there in Columbia anyways?) Lastly, we have cars that require pinpoint precision, every piece working in perfect harmony yet we won't buy one that isn't a certain color or it doesn't have a spoiler. We are severely spoiled people...

   This is the last part of this and I need you to really understand this point and take it to heart. The only reason that I'm writing this is because I have no radio in my car and I was forced to sit and think instead of enjoy some music.

Another thing ticks me off...

I think youtube is a fantastic way to post some great videos and be able to see so many things. However, I also think that about 70% of the videos uploaded to this site are the dumbest, most pathetic things ever recorded. The particular type of videos I am referring to are the ones where its just a video of people's reactions to a video someone else produced. This is just tragic. It ticks me off that people think that this is worth watching. Get some talent to make your own videos or stay off youtube, you hacks.